Okay. I’m talking about this on Thursday because for me, it will always be a Thing in Print. This is my first time even watching this trailer and I don’t know but I really can’t think right about it and oh god god god I can’t do this.
This book was my heart in eighth grade, ninth grade, plus that. Charlie was my first love. Charlie was my first love and it is so hard to see someone else’s vision for it. I have never been able to see Logan Lerman as Charlie. I have never been able to see Emma Watson as Sam. Nothing against either of them. I have no Logan Lerman feelings, I think Emma Watson is just fine, but I just… it doesn’t match.
I want to like this movie. I want to see this as an accurate representation of something that happened in my heart. I’m just terrified that it’s going to come off some cliché, like that strummy music in the trailer, and that is making me so anxious.
We were infinite.
These were words that were so beautiful when I was a teenage kid and I loved this book. Maybe it wouldn’t be the same even if I went back and read the book at this age. Maybe it was perfect in its time and the moment has passed. I don’t know. I hope not, because that would be unfortunate.
(But I’m pretty sure the book never actually said who played Columbia in their shadowcast and I’m looking forward to confirming/denying my Alice as Columbia theory, because I always sort of got a hint of Alice/Mary Elizabeth in there, and I will admit to having felt a teeny bit of Columbia/Magenta at times. So.)
–your fangirl heroine.